bless her for being that patient

assalamualaikum,

first and for most, i would like to apologize for my last entry

because maybe my imagination had run wild and all, writing things

that a Muslim shouldn't do before marriage.

anyway, after long hours of studies and more studying, it is time for a break.

but, a break isn't a good thing if you're staring at the wall all day and doing nothing.

its kind of a mental torture for some, but a relaxing activity for the other.

sometimes, what we feel is different, depending on the person feeling it.

maybe due to genetics or how we were raised as a kid, it's different you see.

well then, today i would like to tell a short story of a friend of mine.

her name is &**^%$%&, well lets just say, private&confidential.

she has a boyfriend, also named as P&C, well lets just say it was smooth sailing

for their relationship.

but

it hit rock bottom when it was their semester break. he has to work and she wasn't

allowed by her mother to leave the house, so basically she was lonely. who doesn't?

it came to a point where she stop having feelings (like imissyou feelings,
 iwanttotextyoualldayfeelings) and she became very numb to her surroundings.
she start doing something else like

photography, arts and craft, and up and coming, playing her guitar.

all the above was done without her boyfriends knowledge what so ever.

she thought of being independent, and less being childish, like reporting all her

where about to her boyfriend, telling him about her day and all. 

she felt non of her stories were important to him, 

what matters the most to him is work.

she knew that her boyfriend had to work for money, which is for a good cause, but for the
days when he is on leave, no texts were received, it's like
 he is working all day, 24/7.

who doesn't get mentally tortured that way?

she once quote,

" if you don't like the person, let that person go. don't let that person wait for you, if you're not actually making that person into your lifelong partner. don't torture the person, that person's heart cry buckets for the things that you have done, but you can't see it because she hide it behind a smile " - well said my friend.

for here at this moment, all the nifty love stuff were too childish for her working

boyfriend, let alone listening to her problems. she decided not to burden her boyfriend's mind

with her little cries. so she decides to hide from her boyfriend 

(as in no texting, no calling).

everyday, she waited for his text, never once she call out, or text out.

it came to a point where her mobile phone credit expires (neverhappen) within the time limit. 

when she checked, from the 10 dolars she top up, she only had used 2.96.

she sigh -.-'', all she could do was to continue her hiding. until to this day (sinceapril1st),

she still hasn't top up her mobile phone, still hiding and still being the numb person she is.

when her boyfriend called, she became this happy girl but behind him, she cried buckets.

so that's her story, till this day, she is still patient with her boyfriend and her boyfriend had 

no clue at all

about how she feel right now.

may Allah be with you always darling girl.

wassalam